This one is a big one for me, I think especially as a women of these times, I have been at it for years, theoretically understanding, but only right now my nervous system just answered it somatically… :
I've been struggling about directions and goals with questions like What should I DO?
Which direction should I take?
How can I be useful, productive, of service?
And because I like sense-making and purpose it became : How to go from Being to Doing? Or rather : how to DO from BEING ?
When all of my environments for so long have been teaching me that : be useful/productive = be safe, add value = earn your place/belong. My systems adapted, developped an over-capacity for sensing, adjusting, compensating incoherences.
And to top it of it added an urgency : to transform all of that into visible action, proof, performance,… just to “survive in this society”. (Call it diploma, success, career, fiting into your gender/family/cultural/educational/national imposed role/expectations and function, …)
I had to DO something about who/what I AM. I, was The Project. (Like so many are these days)
When in fact, there is no need to DO in order to exist.
I AM someone/something that acts already, even without goals or objectives.
By existing, simply being ALIVE, I AM.
And by Being, I DO. It is intrinsic and intricate.
But no amount of doing has ever made anyone be.
Now then, I ask the question: Who are you ? What are you, truly ? Who are we when we stop trying to be useful or productive ? Who are we when we're not performing ?
What are we when we stop performing productivity to justify our existence?
I’m starting to believe this is where something essential lies, not just for individuals, but for our communities, maybe even for us as a species.
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I'm Emmeline, multidisciplinary artist and explorer of our Human depths, from relational intelligence to organisational coherence & governance design
